dance, monkey.

I've been spending a lot of time trying to better myself. I'm quitting smoking, but cold turkey is not agreeing with me. I know how bad smoking is for me, but it's something I enjoy doing. If i didn't enjoy it, I wouldn't do it, you know?Anyway, that aspect is going okay.

I also started working out. Helen and I are doing this biggest loser thing with some of her family. It's sad that I needed an excuse to be healthy. The weight loss aspect is going so well. I've been running a mile every day, sometimes two, and in two weeks, I only lost 3 pounds. If this wasn't a competition, I would care about the weight loss. But it is, and the fact that there's a cash prize, and I'm on the bottom rung right now (when I could really use the money) is what's disappointing to me. There's still good coming out of it though. I've been feeling better...just all around. I don't feel like shit all the time anymore. I don't feel so run down and tired anymore. I know I probably won't lose too much weight or come close to winning the competition, but I still gotta keep at it. It's good for me, and the effects are quite apparent. Here's to health!

Also, after 6 months of looking for a job, I have a interview tomorrow. I'm really hoping to get it, because the hours are effing perfect. It's a cook position, but without the food industry's late and weekend hours. It's a corporate gig. If I get the job, I'll be working a breakfast line in a cafe for Bank Of America employees. 6am to 2pm, Monday through Friday. Weekends and nights off. How great is that? I've never had where I didn't have to work weekends. I'm pretty effin' excited, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up.